my cat got hit by a car and had to be put down, i failed her i failed her oh my god im sorry jackson i love you k why does life have to suck so bad? why fucking me? what did i do, god, that makes you feel that everyone in my family and some animals have to have at least one thing bad happen to them in their terribly long lives? why? what did i mother fucking do. bye jackson, i really super super super super hope theres something for you besides a lonely death, i loved you so much, well as much as i could. and i will miss you, so much. please, let there be a big green yard with lots of cats for you to play with up there, with salmon-chicken running wild and balls of yarn all over the place. with nice, warm cozy beds and people that could love you as much as you could love everything. please. please. please.



and happy mothers day